Demerits..and chapel

so i got demerits for studying in chapel…and for some reason that got me a little upset…. just a little… its dumb..at least i think so… im taking 18 credits…plus chapel is 5 days a week…… during the day… so lets do like they do five hours a week classes…. lets  give it four credits….  why give it credits? cuz they expect u to sit there and listen…. just like any other class…right??  and they say not to think of it as a class…. why not? i take Bible classes… im trying to learn from those Bible classes… am i not? im trying to learn in chapel…am i not? so therefore its just another class that i dont get tested for…. so add the 4 to the 18…that makes it 22 credits…. so 23 hours a week im in some form of session…. and on those weeks that they take away my free hour on wednesdays, then its 24 hours…in ONE week…

so pretty much a full day a week is just class….. all cuz of chapel… so FORGIVE ME if i feel the need to study for a class when im in there….the messed up thing is that i listen to the preacher anyway…. so why give me demerits…

wat is that supposed to do? make me listen? why would i listen? so that i do not get demerits…. is that what u want? u want me to listen cuz i dont want demerits????? really??? thats what demerits do…they make u do things so that u WONT get demerits….

and that was my first time…i didnt even get a warning…not one stinking warning… jus D’s…sigh…. well let me enlighten u…..when u let people do something so that they do not get demerits…. when they get away from here….. then they are gonna do wateva they want….. u cant make people do wat they dont want to…… ure jus creating hypocrites…..

questions? NO!

seriously… some people are just….sigh….. they dont nkow when to shut up…they just keep asking questions….. when its two minutes before the bell rings… do NOT asks questions… we dont want to be stuck in class after just waiting and longing to leave when the bell rings cuz u felt the need to ask a question just before the bell rings… so shut up!! lets all get out of class… u can ask the teacher just after class if u reeealllyyy need to know…and wats even more annoying is when they ask another question

AFTER

THE

BELL

RINGS!!!

noooo…. not ok…. at all….. so learn that oh young one…..
people wanna learn.. but we learn in class….and leave when its over… ok?

i think i made my point……

i wish life was a big joke

i love people…. i really do…. but they annoy the crap out of me… like… really annoy me  i cant go on like this….people need to stay out of my business… so my cousin’s boyfriend had these condoms…. i dont have sex… i just took um…cuz… well… i dont know….lol….this lady who i told not to go in my room because i like my privacy….and i know people like to talk too much…i forgot they were in there…. so now she found it and didnt even ask me about it… i mean coe ON!! its ME!! noo…she says nothing… then TELLS MY MOTHER that she found condoms in my room…. why do people do that?? is that her business???

im a Christian… i dont have sex…. and i wont be as upset if she had said that to mymother only…she said that infront of other people… so now…my name will be tarnished….just like that…. and im upset…. i have a good name…and i want to keep it that way…..i just needed to let it out….im starting to feel better

and my mother is…sigh… driving me nuts…she wants to run my life… and im not letting her…and she is getting upset…and she is making me upset….im not happy at all… its driving me mad….i need her out of here….like right now…..i wish i could go live somewhere else….she questions everything…she gets upset when i get in too late…..she gets mad when i dont go shopping with her….and when i go i get so annoyed and bored and i feel like im wasting my life away… i jus sit there for hours with nothing to do…. so why must i inconvience myself just to make her happy?? and they always use the “i took care of you al those years”…yes… u did…and im grateful…now let me go on with my life…please…. let me be….

ok… glad i got that offf my chest… i feel alot better just like that…wow…haha

I LOVE WORK!!!

i have the most incredible job…. i have internet so that i could facebook… i have a tv with every channel….. and i get to eat as much as i want for free…. im not getting fat though… so no worries there….. still slim… and not fat…ha ha.. im crazy in my head… no lies.. i really am…. people dont really know how crazy i am in my head… im more of a calm person in my head… i try to be…. yea…. i love work… im on a boat…. im done with this blog

i hate hate hate losing things that i write

Stupid facebook does not save notes while i type it so i save it automatically and it made me lose my note and i am pissed… i hate when that happens…. im not going to write this over.. i hate it… i hate hate hate hate it……my insides like… hurt… its like i didnt accomplish anything…. i need to be happy right now…. im happy.. im happy… im happy…. ok… be happy….. happiness….sigh… happy……

I HATE THE NEW FACEBOOK!!!!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!

ok im done now….. i like this idea… shorrt rrants… lol… i shoudl do this more often…